I am Entitled to say....

         We are all entitled to our own opinions, feelings and beliefs. Fact or Fiction? More and more with all the crazy stuff going on, our opinions, feelings and beliefs are judged, not accepted. Now, I know what you're thinking... and I totally admit that I am guilty of judging people for all of this. But, not my point. I recently was scolded by a familial acquaintance for my sense of entitlement. 

           Those who know me personally know I am very protective of my "people." Once you have made it on the list, despite my better judgement, you have to work hard to get off the list. Hell, there are people on my list that I haven't talked to in 2 years, and yet if they called today, I would be there to help. Anyway, there are several people in my life that I have invested in and not seen any "profit" from the relationship, and yet I have continued to pour myself in to it. There is one in particular that I was scolded for. I have been in this person, let's call this person... "Bill". Bill has had some rough patches in life, and I will not say what the patches are, but for the past, almost, six years I have been there to support Bill as much, and as often as I can. Even when I get the call at 11 pm or 2 days after having surgery, I have still been there. Bill, has never once said thank you, and no, it's not expected. Instead, Bill has treated me bad, to put it nicely. But, alas, I have still been there when ever I have been needed, because Bill has become family to me. 

          See, Bill has made a life decision that I do not agree with, that I believe can be harmful to family, and to Bill. I know that Bill can choose to do whatever Bill wants to do. I learned of Bill's choice and it raised several red flags. In my brain, it looked like the scene from Mulan, when the Hun's first climb the Great Wall of China and the Chinese soldiers light off the fire signals along the wall to spread the news of the breech. Any way, the only thing I could do was inform another life force more powerful than I am, and so I did. Bill has made his decision, and so I am making mine. I wish I could believe Bill would share his decisions on his own, but from my 6 years of experience, I didn't believe that Bill was capable to do so. So yes, I am entitled. I am entitled to care about the people I invest in. I am entitled to protect someone who has repeatedly asked me to help with their crap. I am entitled to feel scared and concerned, and I am entitled to ask someone wiser than I am to help in this situation.  

To protect my actual family, my children,  I had to remove Bill from my list. It's painful to take names off. I still care, I will still pray for Bill. But I do not support his decisions and I will not subject my family to them. 

Hang in there,